Amplified Distortion

Oh these times are hard

I don’t want to disappoint possibly the greatest thing that has ever happened, or ever going to happen, in my life ; YOU.

I just wish you’ll tell it to my face that you don’t want me anymore, that I’m not good enough for you, that I don’t deserve you, that you’d rather be with someone else. At least I can finally tell myself that I was right, because I want to to know I was right all along.

What if I turned back time and never wipe those tears away for you that night, and not be the only one there when you needed someone the most? What if I didn’t just intrude into your life like there’s no one else who wants to make you part of theirs when in fact there are? Would my existence be so insignificantly important to your life today? Doesn’t that mean that I won’t let you down as much as I have now? With the little effort I’m contributing into us?

It’s kind of ironic how I’m the cause of your tears when all I ever wanted to be was the boy who only wants see you smile everyday 16 months and 16 days ago.

Frankly, I’m regretting a little now, going all crazy trying to make you mine, got you and yet disappointing you.

But if you really want to find something good out of this, I just want to remind you that I will never regret spending all that time, getting to know you, being able to show you who I really am inside out like no one else does and just being together, with you.